today i have made a decision not to have any 'GF' anymore cause everytime i get into a relationship it wouldn't last long and everytime i have a break-up i will also lost someone that i can confine to. It's been like this for 4 times and everytime the ending is also the same...so decided not to have anymore 'GF' so i won't have to go through the 'heart ache' and loses someone to confine too.....

today is also a stress out day... I think is the after effect of the IPPT ytd so i'm very very tired and still got to go here and there up and down....cos morning the 'smelly bastard' MC again and thiru go range so left oni me to work so very busy and afternoon after lunch when back to office got no mood to work but got alot e-mail to reply plus this and that so really tired out le...

now just reach home so going to have dinner and go bath and then see tired anot, if tired then go sleep already...

--==-Y-==--

how i wish time can return to the past where i can correct my wrong doing and makes thing in right place...

today the first time i almost get into an accident cos i cross the road forgetting to see whether there is any car passing by anot...luckily it's a bike and it rode just right in front of my eye and i still dun realise it first and i just continue walking and i just suddenly realise only after i finish crossing the road...i have not cried today and i dunno when i'll start crying...because for the one month i have been afraid of just one thing and it just happen ytd night...i did not know how i should react first but after i realise that it just happen and now i dunno what to do....

tmr having my IPPT hope i can just pass it once and for all....and stop frowning for my IPPT till i ORDing

--==-Y-==--

now i know how hard it is to regain the trust you lost from someone. i feel like everytime i'm in a relationship i will screw it by doing sonething stupid to my GF. i don't know what i still can do now to get back the trust you gave me before.......