hi everyone...i cant slp again...haix...these few days keep emoing at hm...got nth to do...and u noe wad my life has been becomin more and more dull le...cos its lack of something...money, gal, or friend??i dunno myself...still trying to figure out the cos...

has been staring my com doin nth for 6hrs!!!!i didnt noe how i did it but it amazing la...cant believe i can stare at com for 6hrs doin nth...life's getting more and more and MORE dull these months...ever since may...dunno who will look into my blog nowdays but i jus hope someone would look into my heart and tell me wad had happened to me...cos i feel dat im not myself anymore...cant explain in mere words...just that the CHENYINYUAN is not the CHENYINYUAN i once knew....im quite cheerful in the past but now i seem to cant accept the reality in life...i cant do well in anything i do...example: study, work, and even handle simple problem in life...the only thing i realised is im not myself anymore...this is so FREAKING retarded...

goin NS soon...january 6th 2009...in police academy...

im so sad...