there is alot of things i wanna say bout but same time i also dont know wad to say....life's really likes to make fun of me...these days i feel like i'm having splitting personalities because i can be happy in a moment but suddenly i will start emoing...i really dont know myself now...i dont understand myself and i dont know what i want in life...to me...now life doesnt have any value anymore so what is the purpose i am living for...answer is "i dont know" and that all i can say...

and currently i am very fed up by my internet connection...WTF la when i dont want to use it nothing happen but when i want to use it the connection is not there i really want to shout "FUCK IT LA!" but i am afraid to do so because i might scare my family members...

i wrote this at 10:51PM let see what time i can post this up...

life is meaningless really meaningless now...i dont know who i can approach because i cant find my counsellor cum nurse cum friend cum teacher...where are you i am so upset now...

actually i really dunno wad to update...i think today she is piss off wid me but not sure whether izzit true anot...but jus wanna say sry cos i dunno u are upsad for the whole meeting cos it like nth concren you...and im quite 'fan' also...jus hope that u feel better after ur slp..... :(