wat shld i do...hai...so confusin...WTF...

it should be our 9th month together but we didn't last til this long..i was bored and rotting at hm e whole day...i hav lost interest in everything even plyin of games...life looks meaningless nw...i dun hav a goal in my life anymore...today my mom ask mi y nve go out cos its 25th of the month...i dunno how to ans her..jus told her busy...i hate telling lies but i dun wan her to worry for mi so i hide from eveyone...oni few know dis matter...im so tired...tired of living in dis meaningless world...wat am i living for now...

another day of lonelyness...at hm rot for e whole day..wat can i do...slp eat n ply game...

what is mean by living life to it's fullest?is it mean that living a life with a goal or is it living a life happily...i live happily once but now i've lost my happiness does this mean i already lived my life to the fullest before?or is it i have not live my life to my fullest

i feel that i'm just a walking corpes...it just a matter of time i really turn into one...today i got some of my prelim result...i've done so badly and those are the one i have confident but it turn out so badly done...i can't imagine my other subjects...it must be worse...i'm feeling so down now anyone can tell me what to do...

my title is back to square one again...but with some changes..."lonely man on earth"...

these few days i hardly fall aslp...why..izzit dat i've been thinkin of u too much...since last week i haven been slpin well...especially ytd...i cant fall aslp...i slp oni at 7++ in e mornin...im feelin so lost n lonely nw...

im lonely nw

it no longer can goes back to e past anymore...everything is already over...just lik u say there is nth i can do bout it...n i hav to say im sorry...btw im not sayin u are nt important to mi u are everything to mi...maybe to you all these word seem to be useless nw...but i hav to say..i luv u...goodbye...

hope everything wil be back to normal soon...dat is my only wish....i can dun wan anything jus in return for u..

there is nth i can reassure cos i dunno how i can reassure u...n i dont know wad i can do nw to reassure u...

i feel dat maybe even i want to make thing turn back to normal...im afraid dat i already had no chance to mak it turn back for wad i hav done...i can oni see gd memorise of it but i cannot feel it anymore...i cant even see a ray of light around mi..all i can see around was jus a pitch black darkness...


turnin time back to dat day is jus all i want...but it cant be fulfil cos there is no such machine for mi to go back time...


hopeless

ytd i did a think i thought i wun regret...but jus in e middle of last nite i already regretted it...today im not able to oncentrate on my prelim...i did a thing which i nw suppose i wil regret all my life....a thing which wil not let my life return to normal again...a thing which i never ever wanted to do it again e rest of my life...such a grave mistake oni can be done once in a lifetime n i did it ytd...who can tell mi wat i can do to revert dis grave mistake of mine...i feel so sad n lonely nw...who can ever hlp mi....i feel so hopeles...

why am i under so much stress....i wish i was dead so i wun be able to feel all these stress that was on me...am i suppose to be dead by now...my god please answer me.....

more den one week past le...much has happen but i hope all wil be fine and return to the same as before...and ya my holiday is over le...nw im havin my prelime startin from tmr...hope i can get a good result...got nth more to blog le...goin back study le...bye all...wil blog again soon...

yay!!holiday le..at last lo..waited for so long le...but nth to do at hm eat, slp, play n do homework lo...such a lame lifestyle...n dear i miss u v much...u mus miss mi too...anyway i also dunno want to blog wat de lei...cos now cant slp so tikin of blogging so wil waste some time off but look lik i got nth much to say...hope all of u wil give comment on my blog...